It has been 5 weeks since I have written a post! I am officially a blog-slacker!!!! I seriously don't know where the time has gone. It feels like just yesterday I was telling you all that I am going back to work.
Ah, work.........I'm sure you are wondering how the transition is going. Well, there are such mixed feelings going on inside of me right now.
The first couple of weeks weren't too bad, as I was in training. I was able to see the girls for a little bit in the evenings before I had to get back to studying. I felt disconnected from the girls at the time but nothing like I have felt recently.
I had a week off in between training and the "on call" schedule they set up for me for the remainder of the month.......I had plans to get caught up on everything that was neglected during training but Madi had something different in mind. Madi came down with pneumonia. Yes, you read that right.....pneumonia! I didn't think you could get pneumonia in the middle of summer. But, if you aspirate thin liquids and you need to take allergy medicine (a thin liquid that takes DISGUSTING), you end up with pneumonia. Thankfully, we caught it quick enough and were able to get her on antibiotics so there were no hospitals visits required and she recovered rather quickly! But, needless to say, my week "off" and plans of getting stuff done were spent holding Madi. I literally held her for 4 days straight. Not an exaggeration.....I'm not sure if she was more needy this time around because she was missing her momma or what, but I was exhausted after that!
The following week I flew and was gone for 5 days straight. Home for a day.....and gone again for 2 more. Thankfully, I am home now and will be for a couple of days!
I am hoping that our family will get into a "groove" of some sort this next month. Right now, I am out of sync with the girls. Both girls want nothing to do with me when I first get home from a trip. It's like they are mad at me or something. And then, like a switch, mama is the only one that can do anything. I love it when they make the "switch", but it is also really hard to balance my time with the two of them. I don't really have a chance to have one-on-one time with either of them. And thats really what both of them want.
Another thing I am struggling with right now is therapy for Madi. When I come home, I just want to have fun with the girls. I just want to go to the park. Go to the pool. The zoo. Something fun! I don't want to have to "work" with Madi. I try to incorporate the therapy homework into our playtime but our playtime is never one-on-one. As soon as I start to do something with Madi, Taylor demands my attention. I pay attention to Taylor, Madi starts screaming. I am in a total tug of war with the two of them!
I know that I need to be patient and just take it one day at a time. This is a transition for all of us.
I promise to not be a blog slacker anymore!!! At least I can try and write when I am on the road. And I apologize for not having any photos to share, I don't have my pictures from the computer on my iPad. Let me tell you, over the next few weeks, you will get photo overload....I have lots of great photos to share!!
It's great to be back!!